Quarantining hasn’t been difficult for me, as a writer and art enthusiast. Spending time alone to learn and create is the norm. Had this been say ten years ago, when I was constantly interacting with others, on the phone, out and about, anything to keep from being alone, unhealed trauma echoing against the walls of my mind, I would’ve gone mad. I’ve had my freedom restricted when I went to jail for 24 hours, I’m talking no phone, no water in the dead of summer, no cable tv, no ipad, no laptop, no idea what time of day it was…This isn’t that, so I’m Gucci.
My friend Tom direct messaged me, stir crazy, looking for sanity tips. I just couldn’t relate. We aren’t in Medieval times, plus pot makes many things enjoyable. I’ve been that person who validates themselves with the external and how productive I could be. The former led me to immense unhappiness, the latter took a toll on my health. Now my motto is if God took a day of rest after creating the world, who the hell do I think I am? Shout out to Pastor Donna for that little saying.
People should embrace being forced to do nothing, it resets you, recharges your battery, teaches you things about yourself. Everything happens for a reason, so find the purpose in this gift. Time is the most valuable currency and we’ve been given it in abundance, where others have not, how fortunate.
Even though I reflect daily, the world being forced to stop pushed things I needed to address to the surface, that otherwise would go unnoticed:
- Without trust there is nothing, no friendship, no business partner, no true romance. There were areas in my life missing this key ingredient, I still tried to make it work and now that it can’t I feel sweet relief. If you’re doing most of the work, if the person you’re working with is jealous of you, lies and doesn’t contribute as much, wish them well and move on.
- Money can’t buy you class, Luann De Lesseps was accurate af. Celebrities and celebrisites (parasites riding the backs of celebrities) who lack complete decorum. Classless swine, complaining of boredom, when there are people dying. This is a pandemic, are you kidding? Lady Di, Michelle Obama, Beyonce, Jackie-O would NEVER. It speaks volumes. Tacky, tacky, tacky. You can feel it, but you’re not five years old, have the discipline not to say it. Respect the people whose likes, follows and money have you sitting in a mansion.
- God’s rejection truly is a blessing. Thank you for preventing me from further interaction with certain toxic people, the list is enormous. May not have understood at the time, but boy do I understand now.
Are you taking this time to reflect on your life? Are you having trouble being alone because you’re not your biggest fan? Do you identify with the external more than the internal? What have you learned so far? Via: Soul Ection