“If An Egyptian Cannot Speak English”

This book follows an unnamed rich American woman who decides to reconnect to her Egyptian roots by relocating to Cairo. There she meets a native Arab man referred to only as the boy from Shobrakheit. Messaging her persistently after meeting at Cafe Riche, the American girl finally gives the poor boy a chance. Falling into a dark, toxic, symbiotic relationship of abuse.

Its form is notably experimental, written in three parts. For future readers the novel switches back and forth between both their points of views, in the beginning. The last act being a deliciously meta plot twist. Noor Naga addresses classism, violence, love, social justice, sexism and race. While most books just tell the story, this one makes you question everything, as each chapter begins with one to start, including yourself. It made me think, I took days to process this book. A must read, bold piece of literature.

Spoiler Alert:

Typically I just do a synopsis of the story and why one should read it. However this novel really took my mind places. For those who’ve already had the pleasure of reading this here are some of my thoughts. The rich American dates the poverty stricken boy almost as an act of rebellion against the Cafe Riche gang and her family. After he explains restaurant or cafe to her as classism. A self-described social justice warrior, endeavoring to prove she’s different from them. At the same time she objectifies and dehumanizes him, to a pet and an experience. Like most faux woke people with privilege do. It’s performative. She locks him in her apartment all day, reducing him to a dog and sometimes that dog bites. She uses him for comfort like a pet. She used him for his knowledge until she didn’t need him anymore. Then she found he could be replaced. She’s everything she fights against. Consistently mentioning her social media following, where she calls out injustice. She’s her mother, but doesn’t see it. For me the abuse went both ways. She mentally and emotionally abused him. Knowing he had nothing to fall back on while doing so. 

He on the other hand verbally and physically abused her. Going as far as rape and throwing furniture at her. Someone pointed out that while the American girl was unaware of her behavior, the boy from Shobrakheit was. His toxicity was intentional, but also a part of his culture. This blew my mind in a good way. Is innate racism less problematic, because the person is unaware or does that make it more nefarious? There’s no introspection or self-reflection of one’s behavior, showing a lack of empathy. Together these two made the whole of all the worst traits people can have, complementary toxicity. Definitely a karmic relationship.

Never identifying either of them by name, makes it easier to slip into the inner workings of their mind. The reader gets to almost be them at points, instead of seeing them as separate entities. Much like Jun Ahn’s faceless self portraits (read ‘Self-Portraits’ By Jun Ahn). Allowing you to delve deeper into the characters and yourself simultaneously. As your understanding of each person is defined by your own upbringing and biases. At times seeing things you might not like about yourself based on your reaction to either. Thoughts that you didn’t know were there. As the years accumulate I think this book will gain more acclaim. Brava Noor. Via: Barnes & Noble

Attachment Trauma Versus Love

Know the difference between love and attachment trauma. I didn’t until more recently. With the exception of one, all my relationships have been trauma attachment, especially my last. I put their needs before my own, sacrificed myself, made excuses for their abusive behavior putting my life in jeopardy, kept ignoring the red flags. Now I know better. Love isn’t toxic, or bad, don’t blame something beautiful for the trash behavior of unhealed humans. If you’re filled with suffering, discontent, sorrow, it’s not love. Ask yourself are you confusing the two? Via: JenPeters_Soulguide_Healer

The Super Buck Moon

The biggest super moon of the year has just passed. The Buck moon is affiliated with my baby Artemis, goddess of animals and the hunt, amongst many things. Personally I did a cord cutting ritual (which should only be done on a full moon, or a Sunday), causing me to pass out a solid twelve hours. My candle burned all the way through, while Mick Jagger’s (the cord I cut) did not. I haven’t researched it yet, but instinctively I feel it’s because I’m free from this karmic connection and he’s still stuck on it. When I get the facts I’ll let you know. Our souls were tied from many past lives together, explaining my lifelong obsession. Anyways I feel liberated.

All of the above applies to me right now: I’ve been guzzling water, knocking out, welcoming change, ending shit, releasing this heavy, draining, toxic relationship, realized someone learned how to astral project and comes into my dreams (thank God for this person protecting me, they have a witches mark; I think I might have stayed til I drowned without them) and as for signs LADYBUGS are everywhere. One fell from the ceiling in front of me, one crawled my body at the beach, last night for the first time ever I saw a baby ladybug!!! A BABY! Energies have shifted, can you feel it? How did you full moon? How is it affecting you? Via: Forever Conscious