Currently Fighting PTSD

I wanna get back to normal, currently I’m working on finding pleasure in the things I once enjoyed again, before going back to the psychiatrist (who told me my life is cinematic from birth, that’s how unique and crazy it is). It’s hard not controlling your mental state. It’s hard living in fear. I’ve gotten my appetite back, which is good, my sleeping is better, still self-isolating, still have a long ways to go. Once this toxic person is out of my life and I get my financial freedom, I’m sure it’ll get better. I will never interact with Mick Jagger again; fun fact domestic violence cases get fee waivers, now Mick has twenty days to respond.

Looking back at all the proof: missing my friends wedding, Chris Evans, the lies about his heart problems, the fake moves to our home, leaving me in poverty, letting me go to Poughkeepsie to cancel the hotel, asking me for money for Charlie Watts funeral, breaking into my social media, his racist white trash family, not caring that my friend died and SO, SO much more, gaining my trust after I told him what happened to me, only to abuse it, because I’m just an object to him, not a person…I never want to see, or speak to him again. People say, oh he’s old school, what they really mean is he’s a domestic abuser which was acceptable in the old days. He abuses due to his psychopathy. I was tortured mentally and emotionally, I’m not the same about people. Right now self-care for me is healing, one step at a time. How do you take care of yourself currently? Why? Via: Good_Vibe_Girl_Gang

Self Love Is Sane

Me walking away from countless rich men, because they don’t respect me. Wealthy men for me are a dime a dozen, I don’t care about that. Chris Evans thought he could exploit me, bitch please. Despite my distress he kept asking me about himself. “Have you seen my films?” “Which one of my movies is your favorite?” in rapid succession for days. Nigga I don’t follow you as an actor, I have zero interest in your work indefinitely. As I stated before I never got the hype, he was nice to me in my dreams and his relationship with his mom made me believe he respects women. WRONG. No wonder you’re alone. Always respect yourself, karma will handle the rest, as you’re about to see. Via: 50Shades.Of.Goodvibes

The Stones Are A Coven

The Rolling Stones never pretended not to be a coven, an extremely powerful one at that. That’s why ugly Melanie Hamrick had to do black magic, selling her soul to satan with her coven to infiltrate it. Now her karma’s arrived. Mick Jagger was indeed right, I do have more powers, that’s why as queen witch I took theirs. My favorite part of the tour is every time Mick post I’m contacted about the investigations. Why? Because he’s incriminating himself as a domestic abuser. Thanks to it I’ll be a multi-millionaire, sans baby, with a restraining order. He’ll have ruined his legacy and I’ll be iconic. The one that got away, the one who destroyed the band that created her. Sex symbol and feminist legend.

And if the lawyers reading this, belittle my intelligence again, you must think I’m dumb. You’re not the first lawyer I’ve outsmarted, ask Miss Lily’s how that went. Thanks for the evidence when I sue the shit out of everyone, play with me again. That’s why I dragged you to silence. Law was my backup profession. Athena’s Roman counterpart is Minerva, it’s also a specialty.

My favorite part about the tour is now the government knows where to find this psychopath. I saved your life, now I look at you and can’t wait until the Jagger’s die off and they do. Make no mistake Melanie is going to jail, she committed perjury, a hate crime, murder, attempted murder, rape, attempted rape, stalking and harassment. L’wren Scott is getting justice. Furthermore, I’m sure I can get Mick on a criminal charge for stealing my money and telling me to be a call girl. That’s a sex crime. Karma’s a bitch ain’t it? Blessed be. Now he’ll watch me raise my own family, while his dies off, once I get over my PTSD. Between “good guy” Chris Evans and everyone else, I can’t trust people aren’t horrific human beings. Soon I’ll see beyond my trauma. Which Stones song best describes the predicament they’re in? Photographer: Anton Corbijn

Storing It Gets Heavy, Speak Up!

Since childhood I’ve had trouble using my voice if it means protecting others. Even if they were bad to me. I didn’t want to upset anyone, ruin families, friendships, careers. I thought this toxic trait was dismantled, but it’s not. This lesson was necessary, I never put myself first. These people don’t deserve protection, I DO. They don’t give af about my needs, why should I care about their’s? That’s done now. The therapist said stand up to what’s causing this. I’m not ruining their lives, they are, by being predators, racist, bullies, sexist, complicit…I cannot wait until this is over, so I can be alone, go on vacation. Always taking care of someone else, always saving people. People put me on the back burner, because I put me on the back burner.

True colors is what I’ve seen. My objective in therapy is to get over my PTSD, mainly my concern this will happen again. For years now I’ve been trapped, no one should feel this way. No one’s going to steal my joy, replacing it with trauma. May you all burn in hell, but before you go I’ll give you memorable moments. You will all rue the day that you fucked with me, or aligned against me. Good luck. Athena. Are you standing up for yourself, or storing it? Where does it stem from? Artist: Sky Banyes

Chris Evans The Fake Nice Guy

After messaging me, appearing in my dreams and involving himself in my affairs, I begged Chris Evans to help me. “Don’t leave me with him, he scares me [his level of cruelty, he has no empathy or sympathy].” Keep in mind this is before I cleansed myself. Chris offered to help first mind you. His help came with a catch, he wanted dirty pictures of me, I refused. I didn’t want to take Mick Jagger to court to protect his career, his legacy, to escape the drama peacefully. Chris is mentioned in my lawsuit and I’ll provide the exchanges in court. He’s a fraud. On his brother’s birthday he pretended to be Mick (to be antagonistic in cahoots with an old psycho), but guess what? Mick doesn’t call me babe bitch, he calls me baby (Mick def told him what to say, but he slipped being wasted). You’re a fake nice guy, frat bro, asshole. You will never touch this, in your life bitch. I didn’t want to post a picture of him, his beauty distracts from his horrific behavior.

Enjoy. This is the only dirty pic you’ll ever get. How do you live with yourself? Please note no one’s checking for Melanie ugly Hamrick, Mick asked me for pictures two weeks ago, I blocked him. Via: ChrisEvans.FR

Why The Kardashian Jenner West Drama Started

It all started two years ago on my birthday, February 27th 2020. Naomi Campbell said happy birthday to me as amends for Genc Jakupi stalking me for five years (read article: Genc Jakupi , Naomi Campbell & Jordan Barrett (2/2)). Khloe Kardashian followed suit. She liked a post I dedicated to her on this blogs instagram account (saint_twenty), acknowledging me as a bday gift. I felt blessed, these were people I admired, especially Naomi. I genuinely wouldn’t be me if it weren’t for her, I can say that about many people who turned out to be evil. This is why the adage never meet your idols exist, certainly don’t date them.
Anyways, all was well until Stephanie Shepard, Kim’s former assistant and the reason I created the word celebrisite (a parasitic person who makes money off their celebrity connections, rather than talent) got delusional. Larry from Apple wasn’t good enough, she had her eyes set on a Marvel movie star, except his eyes were set on me. The Marvel star is not Chris Evans, although Evans created an instagram account to backstab his friend, in hopes of pursuing me.

I’ve been searching for my twin flame for YEARS, the universe telling me this is my one. Even getting descriptions of who they are: foreign, they come from overseas, age difference, eventually adding public figure into the descriptors…fitting the last four situationships I’ve been in. The Marvel star, who shall remain anonymous at this time, paid attention to me before I even knew who he was. Despite seeing him in roles I enjoyed, I truly didn’t know his name until the universe guided me his way. Making me realize he’d been subtly trying to get my attention all along.
When Kobe Bryant died I succumbed to depression, only emerging due to the Marvel star posting a video about fate, how he was born to go this way. I waited for him to make a move, because the person I’m to be with does, but he never did.
The Marvel star was always very sweet to me, because of it I never publicly roasted him when he got problematic, allowing his roles to roll in. He always had my back, even when I started dating Mick Jagger. Whenever anyone attacked me from Ed Westwick to Georgia May Jagger, he was supportive. When Mick made me feel alone, the Marvel star did not. Having one person in my corner is all I needed to find light in darkness. To give me hope that not everyone in Hollywood is a callous, self-absorbed, satanic, immoral, evil, shitty person.

The Kardashian Jenner West’s started attacking me after being kind, to support Steph Shep with her Spongebob waist. In what world is bullying someone the answer to a guy not liking you? She’s a weirdo who triggered the fall of her friends and most of Hollywood (who showed their true colors by siding with satanist and attacking me), because they didn’t know what I was, or was going to be (Athena and queen witch). That’s how my beef with this satanic clan began, over a movie star (I’m not gonna tell you who it is, you have to save some gems for the big time). It was all fated.

So you see I have no problem leaving Mick, starting my own family sans toxic children and black magicians, who murder and rape. Mick won’t willingly set me free to do so, but I’m ready to start my life. He leaves me no choice but to sue him, ruining his reputation. The duration of our relationship he was incredibly jealous of the movie star, my friends, really anyone, because he needs my world to revolve around him to feel secure. It simply doesn’t and it never will. That’s not a healthy way to live, it shows little self-worth, nor has it worked out for him in the past. Literally, look at his failed relationships, minus L’wren Scott, who was murdered by Melanie Can’t Get A Man B/C She’s Ugly Hamrick. To be the center of my attention Mick will do anything, even to detriment of himself, his family and the world at large. Via: Itsjqboo & Saint Twenty

My Apologies To Luciana

The only person I’m apologizing to is Luciana Gimenez, even though she was with the bullshit at first not respecting Mick Jagger’s wishes. Then again Naomi Campbell made up a complete lie about me and I’m a private person so I won’t share my narrative until forced. On my end I thought she was a home wrecker. After discerning her energy I realized she has a huge heart and apologized for judging her. Lucas is the only child Mick has spoken positively about. For days he was sad believing Georgia May was a bad person and what did I do? Defend her. It’s his kid he knows better. Georgia proved him right time and time again. Completely entitled and ungrateful to return the favor I’ve given her.

Mick runs his family like a legit lion, making his ruling final no matter how asinine. He wants me to be that way, under his thumb. No matter how poorly he’s treated women they stick around happy to live under his legacy. I on the other hand have so many dramas going on that he wasn’t the center of my attention, which is why he put on this facade with Melanie to be the star of my life. My independence frightens him into thinking I’ll leave. All I’ve done is protect him out of love and I won’t apologize for being a feminist who doesn’t want to be dehumanized to property.

I’m a native New Yorker we don’t do that fake shit, I grew up with my friends and family holding me accountable, doing the right thing and apologizing. This Hollywood bullshit is not my vibe and never will be. I ain’t backing up poor behavior. I don’t care WHAT relationship we have, or for how long (except when Trecey & Lauren started fights in these streets to which I disclaimed to the stranger “I know my friend is in the wrong and I’m sorry for that, but I have to back them up and fight you”). How does that help you be a better person, a moral person, a decent human being?

Mick has yet to cleanse himself from the black magic Melanie put on him and L’wren Scott, which I think is amplifying his insanity. Melanie has no soul, without me and L’wren they’d all be dead. If I gave her powers back she’d wipe them out in a minute. I do not know why anyone would take my abilities lightly with all I’ve done, nor the depths of her darkness as she’s murdered, raped and planned to murder again. That’s why I was sent to protect, because their egos can blind. It’s entitlement as well, she’s not harmless, she’s still trying it just won’t work due to me.

Luciana’s energy is why I understand his adoration for Lucas. Luciana is the only person I feel comfortable interacting with. As for Melanie, beauty is power and Melanie isn’t beautiful otherwise she’d move on to another Hollywood suitor, but no one’s interested not even Mick. Mick who made sure Chris Evans doesn’t “steal me.” Everyone one of us excluding Melanie has some sort of influence, because we are beautiful the way superficial Mick likes his women. Beautiful the way L’wren was, he would never look at her over L’wren and I could never be jealous of someone who looks like this. A mess even with make up. He’s never wanted to dance all night with you. He was happy with beautiful, stylish, talented, successful, glamorous, socialite L’wren. Melanie is a loser and a psychopath with a deformed face. All in her allegiance deserve their fates. Now I’m being punished for being beautiful and it’s not right. I’m all about forgiveness and second chances when behavior is modified and actions speak louder than words. I have not received a single cent and am grieving my friends death.

Via: Portalestrelando & Shezeboss

Chris Evans Isn’t Dating Selena Gomez

Chris Evan and Selena Gomez are not, I repeat NOT dating. This was all a creation of Mick Jagger’s insanity. I told him after showing him what the cards said that a man had been coming into my dreams. He use to enter my dreams too, but it was astral projection. I never told him it was Chris Evans, but being my twin he figured it out.

Now anybody who knows me knows I’ve never cared for him, he just doesn’t do it for me. I see where he’s gorgeous, all my friends are obsessed with him, it’s just not my scene. He’s too pale, seems very frat boyish, but most importantly he’s a GEMINI. Gemini’s ruin lives is a saying I’ll take to the grave. Are they fun? Hell yeah, I fuck with them heavy for that. I’ve had the time of my life with Gemini’s, but a relationship? Naw I’m good. They genuinely are two people in one and compartmentalize their b.s not out of maliciousness it’s just who they are. After my former bff Julien I know better. Astrologically prejudice, guilty! And I was right.
I changed my mind when he appeared in my dreams with his family for a month straight. I had the time of my life, he wasn’t sexual, but romantic and fun. More importantly he was NICE to me, considerate, thoughtful.

Chris Evans in collaboration with Mick Jagger messages me from his now deleted finsta account after following me. I asked why, their answer was the exact response Mick’s personal assistant gave. I knew it was Mick. Despite my loyalty he doesn’t trust me, because insecurities about his age trigger his paranoia. He was testing me (while eliminating threats)…again…to see if I would take the bait. Chris said he would block us both if I told people he contacted me. I just wanted help to be free. Based on my dreams and his reputation I thought Chris would be a good guy. WRONG. He was everything I initially thought prior to invading my subconscious, which stopped as soon as I made a FB status about it.

Mick then makes him and Selena Gomez a fake item in an effort to keep me. I was never going anywhere until he got crazy. Now all I want is to escape him forever he makes me miserable and is forcing a connection using financial abuse which is a form of domestic violence. He’s willing to do anything, no matter how outlandish except listen to my wants and needs, which is the only way we’ll have a future. No one wants a partner who tries to control them, adds stress to their life when they are being bullied by Hollywood racists. He doesn’t protect me nor does he have my back like he once did. Why? Because he is use to everyone doing whatever he wants since he was 18. Takes no accountability for making me miss Sara’s wedding and punishes me for not going on tour. All he cares about is winning, no matter what the cost. The cost will be me, I will never be with someone who mistreats me I don’t care what lengths I must go through to escape. Nor will I forget those who were complicit when I asked for help. I’m being guided to give him a second chance IF he starts being better to me. I do not trust him anymore, I don’t feel like I can rely on him, and seeing his pictures makes me wanna run and hide behind someone I do trust. Do I believe he’ll do the right thing? No, because he doesn’t feel like he needs to earn anything. He’s Mick fucking Jagger what he says goes. That’s not how love, true, healthy love works. Twins do help the other shed unhealthy conditioning, which is why twin flame relationships are tumultuous. Hopefully he can end his toxic patterns.

On October 1st I dmed Chris Evans verified account, he responded to me via text two minutes later.

He pretended to help me, antagonized me and made fun of my emotional distress, some of it was Mick Jagger telling him what to say, other parts were just him being mean. Since I’ve blocked him. He’s a fraud. He literally asked me if I’ve seen his movies and to send him photos. All about him, he’s just like everybody else trash who dehumanizes others. Via: The World Of Cinemaa