An Imbalanced Sacral Chakra

Honestly, I have all this stuff I want to post, but I’ve been in a rut. At first I didn’t know how I was feeling, I just knew I felt funny near my naval. An emptiness, a void, a bad feeling. I could tell this was a problem of the energetic body and was able to identify the culprit, an imbalanced sacral chakra.
The sacral chakra is feminine, it’s element is water, it’s in charge of creativity, emotions, relationships, sexuality and intimacy. My ability to create, my energy levels, my feelings of intimacy are fucked up thanks to my ex. Finding out that Mick Jagger was holding me hostage, while vacationing with his new girlfriend added a new level of betrayal. Like he really just wanted to hurt me, when I saved his life and genuinely loved him. He went as far as setting my job up to destroy my finances. It takes a lot to hurt my feelings, but that did it.

I have trust issues, especially after being stalked by Genc Jakupi for half a decade. What hurts is I confided in Mick regarding it all, telling him I didn’t want a relationship. Instead he rushed me, knowing I idolized him. I pushed myself to trust him, worked really hard to open up, took a risk, and he wasn’t worth it. He left me more traumatized and it was just unnecessary. I wanted to part ways amicably, instead he refused to give me what he owed, and tried to incarcerate me. He chose to damage me further, mentally and emotionally, instead of letting us both move on in a respectful manner. After I told him he should find someone who suits him.
He misses me, because I’m a good girlfriend. He let everyone get in his ear, instead of believing in me, and punished me for being a good person. I would never do that. He’s the most toxic boyfriend I’ve ever had. We went from fiancés to divorced, no marriage, but I’m the one wielding a knife on Hackney Diamonds. I know the album and kicking his kids out of the will is his way of making amends, but he left no room for me to ever trust him again, even as a friend. He left no stone unturned in betraying me. There was nothing he wasn’t willing to do to cause me pain. That’s what hurts. I wouldn’t do a fraction of that stuff to him. I didn’t. I saved his racist family after they treated me terribly, to spare him pain. He was my best friend. I lost someone I loved and the person I admired all my life.

Now I have to pop out these divine children, so the world doesn’t end and I don’t even trust anyone. It’s just so much pressure. I don’t even want to try to love again right now. There’s so much ill intent and evil in this world, it’s disgusting.

Today I feel better after doing a sacral cleanse yoga routine. I was able to process my feelings, reaffirming that if someone doesn’t treat me with respect I’m out. Our society has created and enabled toxic masculinity. We really need to reconnect these “men” with their emotions, this behavior is not okay. Mick is a product of his environment. Without thinking too much about it, what does being a man mean to you? What traits and behaviors are qualifiers of being a man? Write it down, look it over, is our view healthy, a safe space for others? Via: Mairi_Design_Studio & Cosmic Ajna

Pick A Affirmation Post-It

Repeat the same affirmation to yourself daily for at least a week, witness how much it changes you. Mentally. Emotionally. Personally I’m choosing the second post-it, “I am proud of how far I’ve come.” I look back at all I’ve overcome, absconding the ill intents of evil powerful people and I’m genuinely grateful. If I were anybody else I’d be dead. Certainly wouldn’t have come out ahead. Yet here I am, serving divine justice. Karma. Root for yourself, be your own biggest cheerleader. Via: LittleBitsOf_Hope

Your Relationship With YOU

How you feel about yourself translates into all other relationships. You accept the love you think you deserve. What you feel deserving of comes from you. If you love yourself, you won’t settle, you’ll set up healthy boundaries others adhere to. If they don’t you’ll let them go. If you don’t love yourself, you’ll have toxic relationships. Even if someone loves you, you’ll find yourself unworthy and push that person away.
Evaluate how you feel about yourself, how it correlates to the bonds you have with others. Via: Doodle Gems

Do You Seek Problems Or Gratitude?

Complaining is easy, training yourself to seek gratitude is difficult. Where you place your energy is what will grow. Why would the universe give you more, if you don’t appreciate and take care of what you have? People think it’s so silly, but every little action, thought is an energetic exchange directing the universe on what to give you and what to take away.

There are plenty of times I could have sunk into an egoic mind, especially when being in a domestic violence situation. If that’s all I did though, I wouldn’t be receiving the multitude of blessings coming in. You’d be surprised at how many people with the ability to make the most of a home, or preserve their health by taking care of their homes don’t. They don’t see it, but these inactions are a way of turning away the gifts bestowed upon them from the almighty GOD. Why give to the ungrateful? Change your attitude from ego to gratitude. It works. Name five things you’re fortunate to have?Via: The Scattered Feelings

Please Behave Like Animals

The Earth resets through nature, when civilization gets disrespectful and evil overrides good. That’s the point of Noah’s Ark, lost cities like Atlantis. It’s happened plenty before, you’re watching it happen now. That’s why I incarnated. If the war is between mankind and Gaia, the latter always wins. Humans are products of the environment, something they’ve seem to have forgotten. Planet Earth doesn’t need us, we need it. I’m being repetitive. Clean your sh*t up, it’s not cute. You think the universe would let you destroy another planet? Then you’re not thinking. You’re welcome for my presence. Animals have better manners. Via: S0ulActivation

Manifest Your Destiny

Manifest the life you want; every successful person saw themselves doing it in detail before getting there. Our thoughts shape reality, sometimes you manifest against yourself when you expect the worst, consequently getting it. Such is the power of the mind. Think about it.
Focus that energy on what you want, instead of what you don’t want. Easier said than done, but you’re doing it anyways, might as well do it with a set intention. It just dawned on me, that’s why they write aim, or objective on the board in class. Do everything with intention. Take control of your life, by taking control of your thoughts. Manifest your destiny with one of the above tips. Find what fits (I’m not a vision board person, gratitude practice is my vibe). Co-create with the universe, align your actions with your intent. Be realistic, take baby steps, and remember practice makes perfect (I use to be a worrywart trust me!). Via: Blissful Careers

The Alchemy Of Pain To Power

“Second: I can use pain to become.
I am here to keep becoming truer, more beautiful versions of myself again and again forever. To be alive is to be in a perpetual state of revolution. Whether I like it or not, pain is the fuel of revolution. Everything I need to become the woman I’m meant to be next is inside my feelings of now. Life is alchemy, and emotions are the fire that turns me to gold. I will continue to become only if I resist extinguishing myself a million times a day. If I can sit in the fire of my own feelings, I will keep becoming.” Via: Holly Murray_Doodles

Meditation Is A Great Mindful Tool

Everyone can stand to be a little more mindful of their behavior. If you aren’t trying to be a better version of yourself each day, then what are you even doing here? Growth comes from introspection, finding the cracks and mending them. The only person you should be competing with is yourself, becoming an upgraded version from the day before, the week before, the year before…you catch the vibe. Trust you’ll be happier for it. Tip: meditation is a great tool for mindfulness, it’s literally about all of this: detaching, grounding your mind, listening to your soul. Which one of these do you need to focus on? Via: Our Mindful Life

And Everybody Hurts Sometimes

Shifting perspectives seems minute, when it’s actually seismic. In fact nothing else compares. How you see things shapes and creates your life. The ability to change that is a blessing we take for granted. I mean, it’s really seeing the cup half full, or half empty, an epic alteration of your being. Which is why focusing on the lesson rather than the hurt is a game changer.
Everybody get’s hurt, it’s part of being human. Some get a great deal more than others, myself included. Surviving was a matter of faith aligned with action, after shifting my focus. I looked at the lesson, because the pain was distorting my reality, making me feel it’s the only one that exist. I know it’s easier said than done, but it’s fucking worth it.

An exercise: make two columns one titled hurt, the other lesson. Write down five times you’ve gotten hurt, then the lesson learned in the appropriate column. Look at all you’ve overcome. Via: The Oracle Reads U

Power Couple “Coincidence”

The fact that this photo exist is wild.
All black magic victims.
The men having no freewill in their love lives.
There is no such thing as coincidence, what are the chances these two couples would take a picture together.
Crazier still, this was taken on my 22nd birthday. February 27th 2011. If you know what that number signifies, you know. Via: Getty Images